Imperfect?
Posted on Feb 3rd, 2008
by
Charles
Imperfect and perfect are just very subjective words and can be laden with ego. He is a perfect ass or it happened in God's perfection or there are imperfections in that diamond. It is a semantic nightmare to speak about.
In speaking about myself, I traveled my imperfect path in my own perfect timing. The illusion (or maya, devil) in this place is so tricky that it took me several years to see that the path I am traveling is right for me and taking me home. I was imperfect in that I did not even know what to look for. I think a big part of my problem was that I started so late on the real thing. My former wife and best friend, Gina, took right off on the path and it was only because of my trust in her and watching her move that I hung in there until I could find it for myself.
I was 39 when I finally did the Miracle of Love Intensive, two years after very close friends invited me and told me of the incredible movement being had. By that time, even though I had done some work on myself, I was so angry, jaded and thought that life was just to be enjoyed as much as possible and I talked myself in to believing that I was enjoying life. Even though my marriage was failing, I was an angry man in my daughter, Chelsea's eyes and in most of my friend's eyes as well.
Thus imperfect.
I had no depth to speak of. Even though I had been somewhat active in the Episcopal Church in my youth and really tried to find my way to God at times through youth groups and such, finding God in this place is a very difficult task and takes great endeavor and a teacher that can help keep you on track. I was a very passionate child full of wonder and the sensitivity was all that remained in to adulthood and spurred my anger. Turned out, it took me many more years to get my anger under control than it took to develop it.
I am 52 now and it wasn't until about 3 years ago that I actually realized that I am on my path Home. I have been active on a path with Miracle of Love for fourteen years and for most of that I thought I knew that I wanted to go Home, but I was laging. I did not give it my all, my full desire and intensity. Now I am on fire, what it takes if you want the kind of movement that will break you free. I understand now that if you want to move with God you have to move faster than the illusion.
Now I am endeavoring to become the perfect seeker of Home.
Charles
In speaking about myself, I traveled my imperfect path in my own perfect timing. The illusion (or maya, devil) in this place is so tricky that it took me several years to see that the path I am traveling is right for me and taking me home. I was imperfect in that I did not even know what to look for. I think a big part of my problem was that I started so late on the real thing. My former wife and best friend, Gina, took right off on the path and it was only because of my trust in her and watching her move that I hung in there until I could find it for myself.
Gina Chelsea
Thus imperfect.
I had no depth to speak of. Even though I had been somewhat active in the Episcopal Church in my youth and really tried to find my way to God at times through youth groups and such, finding God in this place is a very difficult task and takes great endeavor and a teacher that can help keep you on track. I was a very passionate child full of wonder and the sensitivity was all that remained in to adulthood and spurred my anger. Turned out, it took me many more years to get my anger under control than it took to develop it.
I am 52 now and it wasn't until about 3 years ago that I actually realized that I am on my path Home. I have been active on a path with Miracle of Love for fourteen years and for most of that I thought I knew that I wanted to go Home, but I was laging. I did not give it my all, my full desire and intensity. Now I am on fire, what it takes if you want the kind of movement that will break you free. I understand now that if you want to move with God you have to move faster than the illusion.
Now I am endeavoring to become the perfect seeker of Home.
Charles

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